Hi, guys! Has it really been two years? A lot has happened in the two years that I’ve been away..
A lot of you know me as this girl..
This was me three years ago and 100 pounds lighter. I had recently lost 70 pounds via starvation, weighing in at 190 pounds. And I was still considered overweight. But I was happy. I didn’t have depression or anxiety. I had a “boyfriend” who I thought loved me. I had a wonderful job and was in college. I had everything going for myself.
Then this happened..
Big difference, right? This is me currently. I broke up with my boyfriend. I graduated from Community College. I weigh nearly 300 POUNDS. I have terrible social anxiety and depression. I have a job that I hate. I binge eat weekly until I’m sick.
I need to get my life together.
About two months ago I decided that I was tired of being overweight. I’m tired of the back pain, and the social anxiety and depression. I’m basically tired of being tired. Did I mention that I’m only 23 years old? A few months ago, I watched some documentaries on Netflix that really got me thinking about my health. Cowspiracy, Forks Over Knives, Food Matters, and Vegucated, to name a few. I found out that eating a Whole-Food, Plant Based Diet is one of the best things you can do for yourself and the planet. So I’ve decided to give it a try. Starting today, I’m going to eat a mostly Whole-Food Plant Based Diet. One year. Mostly no meat, animal by-products, and no dairy.
This is the scariest thing I’ve ever done. To publicly say how much I weigh. To publicly say I binge eat and hide it. That I’m so unhappy with my life. But I have to tell the truth so I can move forward. I want to write about my experience because maybe it will help someone out there going through the exact same thing.
Two months ago at work I started thinking about what I wanted for 2017. Who did I want to be? Where did I want to go? So I came up with a list.
- I want to travel more. My dream is to travel to London with my sister.
- I want to move to the city. In my own apartment.
- I would love to start a beauty blog. I guess this blog is a start.
- I want to start meeting new people. Make new friends.
- I want to lose 100+ pounds. My goal weight is 150.
- I want to fall in love again.
- I want to do something crazy to my hair.
- Have a Plant Base Diet.
- Exercise more.
- BE HAPPY.
These are my current life goals. Most of them seem so simple, which scares me. It’s crazy to think that I’m striving to have even the most simplest things in my life. Which makes me even more determined.
Here’s to a wonderful start to 2017. Cheers, everyone. Happy New Year!